I have had this topic penned down for at least 3 months and I have been putting away writing this post for 2 weeks. Not because I didn’t know what to write but because I wondered if I was being true to myself with what I had drafted. Have you ever lost a loved one? Lost a valuable item? Failed at something your life seemingly depended on? Have you ever wondered why bother? Why struggle and to what end? Well I have! I have found myself asking these questions over and over and over again. Sometimes they are rhetorical questions and other times, I want answers. Do I get the answers? Are they the right answers? Let’s assume they’re right, right by whose standards? Mine, society’s or God’s? Do I precondition my mind to expect certain answers because they can potentially make me feel better? The answer is yes.
I find that often times, we want to be logical in how we approach challenges or situations. We want to be able to plot the graph, do the matrix, permutations and combinations to predict the results that are favourable to us. We want to have things go our way. Even though we secretly whisper “Lord, take control” under our breaths, we don’t always mean it. Most times we say those words out of obligation and not because we fully trust God to “take control”. I mean how can we expect God to take control when He doesn’t understand for instance how it feels to lose a loved one right? Wrong! (John 3:16) I learnt to let go and let God a long time ago even before I knew that’s what I was doing.
I remember being in a relationship a couple of years back and we had to end things between us because we shared identical genotypes (AS). It was a rather devastating and deeply emotional moment, knowing that neither of us had control of the situation. I prayed, fasted and sowed seeds for God to change my genotype or his, did a number of blood tests to be sure my Genotype was really mine (LOL! God must have thought what a silly little daughter). To cut the story short, none of that happened because I was so focused on having things go my way. My prayers were skewed to me demanding from God how I wanted my miracle and how I wanted my prayers answered without truly asking if any of it was His will for me. I know now to trust in His perfect will for me and in his promises (Jer. 29:11). This is not to say that whenever I’m in similar situations that are beyond me it’s easy to rest in His promises. It’s just become a more familiar route to take as I grow in deeper understanding of how God deals with me.
Sometimes we feel alone and like we’re out of human/natural options and God is sitting back, waiting for us to admit that we can’t handle it all by ourselves. As soon as we make that confession he comes running to wrap us in His warm embrace.
Overall, I’m learning to:
- Understand that I do not have all the answer neither does Google nor my best friends (Col. 3:2-3)
- Take a deep breath, relax and focus (Romans 8:28)
- Realise that I do not have complete control of all that happens to and around me (Phil 4:6-7)
- Find joy and comfort in the fact that my heavenly Father sees all, knows all and gets me through it all (Prov 3:5)
I hope we learn to listen to God’s voice, seek God’s will regarding every aspect of our lives and trust God in His plans for us.
Have you found yourself in a situation where you’ve had to “let go and let God? How do you deal with those situations?